Tuesday, December 11, 2012

What I've Learned


            Throughout my time at my current school I can honestly say that up until this semester, I have learned relatively little as most of the material covered seems to have been material that was rehashed from high school.  However, this semester has surprisingly been different.  Within this class, the main thing that I have learned is the differences in the way people thought back in the 1600s through the 1800s as opposed to how people think today.  While I was aware that people had different thought patterns it never really set in just how differently people thought.
            One of the eras that really stood out was the 1600s and just how different it was and how terrible the conditions were for early settlers.  Now, anyone who took an early American History class in any grade knows that life was extremely difficult for early settlers.  There was constant war with the natives, the weather was bad, food was often scarce and many of the settlers would die.  However before I took this class, I was never truly understood just how miserable these people were.  My true understanding of this came when I read a letter by a man of the era by the name of Richard Frethorne.  In the letter he writes to his mother and father, regarding the horrible conditions of the colony.  Within the letter, he describes that he is often malnourished, eating only gruel and peas, has had things stolen from him by his fellow colonists, and is constantly afraid of native attacks.  He truly makes you feel his situation in the New World and I honestly can’t help but wonder why schools do not require this as reading for the time period.
Our study of New England literature from this era also proved to be enlightening.  Today, we now know that many of the indigenous populations were wiped out by disease brought over from Europe, particularly Small Pox.  Now, the ways that people interpreted the cause of these massive deaths was quite interesting.  Again, we now know that it was Small Pox that killed off most of the indigenous population.  However, the Puritans believed that it was the will of God that the land be cleansed of the heathens in order for their religion and populations to prosper.  On the side of the natives, they believed that the settlers were some kind of gods or wizards who were able wipe out entire populations on a whim.  While I always knew that people from that time period were a little zealous when it came to their religion and that most explanations they had to major events had something to do with God or the spirits I had no idea just how far this went with these people and I found it a little disconcerting.
            Later on in the century there was the conflict known as King Philip’s War.  Now as with most wars with the natives, the general consensus seems to be that during this war King Philip was in the right.  That it was the settlers who were the invaders and constantly mistreating the natives in various ways.  However, again, the settlers had a very different way of looking at things.  In many ways they saw the war with the natives as almost a war forces that were an affront to God.  In one particular piece we read, A Narrative of the Captivity and Restoration of Mrs. Mary Rowlandson, we see this war in a much different light.  In the narrative she graphically describes the deaths of her friends and family and in what light she views them.  It is something that is difficult to put into words but you really get a sense of what her mind set was like and just how different the settlers were from the natives. 
This was something that I ultimately took two things away from.  The first was that I was a bit more sympathetic towards the settlers who, up until now, had been the villainous invaders who had wiped out the native population and these reading made me see them more as people then these faceless monsters.  The second, and possibly the most important, was that the main cause of many of these conflicts was simple ignorance on both sides.  They didn’t understand each other’s ways of thinking and this was what ultimately led to conflict.  The ideas of property, religion, and ones role in society were radically different.  This would lead to people getting into wars that were often misunderstandings and I can’t help but believe that if both sides had made more effort to reach out and understand one another many of the conflicts that arose may have been prevented.  Perhaps this is naïve of me to think so but it’s one of the many what-ifs we will never get to experience.

Another major thing that I took away from this class was the thought process of the founding fathers while forming the nation and the political battles that ensued after the constitution was ratified.  Now I had always known that things like the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution were documents that were founded on compromise but what I did not know was just how bitter some their arguments got and these arguments often tore families and friends apart.  During the Revolutionary War, for example Ben Franklin and his son were on opposite sides of the war and the two never spoke again after the lines were drawn in the sand and actually inspired him to write his autobiography as a kind of explanation of his actions.  Several of the founding fathers argued over what rights the individual should have and how the government should be run.  One of the most notable examples was an argument between Patrick Henry and Thomas Jefferson over the separation of Church and State.  Before I had taken this class I had always assumed that all of the founding fathers had agreed on this and I hadn’t realized that this was something that was ever open for debate.  Patrick Henry was firmly against this mainly citing that the church needed to be a kind moral compass for the government and in order to do this it had to be directly involved in its running.  Thomas Jefferson argued for this, citing that it would eventually violate people’s right to freedom of religion and that such things always led to one group dominating the other, ensuring some form of tyranny.  While it is obvious who won this argument this was a debate that I honestly did not know happened and feel more enlighten for the information.
  On a similar note, when the founding fathers were forming the nation under the Constitution many of them argued over what should be or what should not be part of it.  Some of the founding fathers argued that a bill of rights should be added to the Constitution in order to prevent the Federal Government from violating them.  However, others argued against having them included and the readings in this class offered an alternate explanation as to why this may have been.  Before, I had assumed that their arguments against the passage of the amendment was just a way for the upper class to try to restrict the rights of the lower classes, as men of power usually do.  And to be perfectly honest, I’m not entirely convinced that this is entirely untrue as some of the actions of the founding fathers, (such as the Electoral College process or the restricted voting rights), could easily be interpreted as actions to keep the lower classes down.  However, the explanations given by some of these founding fathers were valid.  The main argument basically said including a bill of rights into the Constitution would ultimately limit the rights that the individual would ultimately have.  Now, in the long term this turned out to be inaccurate and to this day we have arguments over how far these rights go and without them in the Constitution it would be a much more bitter battle.  All the same, you can see where these founding fathers were coming from in this belief and it may have very well ended up that way if certain events in history had gone one way rather than the other.  However, I’m still not entirely convinced that my theory was wrong and believe that arguments such as these should be viewed with caution at best. 

Jumping ahead a few decades, I’ve often found books, novels and stories from this period to be really dull, dry and often incoherent and just assumed that was the way people wrote in those days and just hadn’t aged very well.  I also never entirely understood why it was that authors were often either broke or had other professions in this era and this class served to enlighten me in both areas.  As it turned out, I was only partly right on the former and this directly affects the latter.  What I had not realized was just how expensive books were in this era and were not available for mass distribution.  It was because of this that making a living as an author was next to impossible, hence the poverty or multiple carriers of said writers.  I also discovered that the reason why these books were so long and cryptic was that they were supposed to be that way.  Again, books were very expensive in those days so the consumer would want the book to last for as long as possible and the authors would intentionally write the books so they would have to be read multiple times before the reader could decipher the author’s true meaning.  It’s a concept that may be alien to the general reader today, but when you put all of these things into context, it makes a lot more sense and I have viewed literature from that era in a whole new light.
But perhaps the greatest thing that I took away from this class was the information I gained while reading The Way to Wealth by Benjamin Franklin.  One thing that I have constantly heard throughout my life is to save money but I have never really had a proper guide as to how I would do it.  This is where The Way to Wealth came in as it told me blatantly how to do it; work hard, avoid being lazy and don’t buy things you don’t need and save your money.  This is an over simplification of what the almanac said but it described how to do it in such a way that I have never heard before.  Even if all of what I have learned in this class proves relatively useless in the long term this is one thing that I will keep in mind for the rest of my life and have vowed to reread his advice at least once a year.

So, what have I ultimately taken away from this class?  The most important thing was probably the advice I received from The Way to Wealth as it seems to have given me a way to avoid bankruptcy so long as I follow its advice and I intend to so long as I can.  The other main thing and almost as important is the broader understanding I have gained for people of these eras.  Before the events and hardships of the people of Jamestown were just words in books but because of this class I have really gained a feeling and insight into the suffering of these people.  These feelings can also be said of the wars with the natives fought in New England and the plagues that spread to them as this class really allowed me some insight into how the people on both sides thought.  I was also astounded at just what the Revolutionary War did to some families and how the game of politics was played during the nation’s formation and the immediate rivalries that came after.  And of course there is my understanding of what books were truly for in the 18th/19th centuries; to be read again and again to find the true meaning of the words.  Maybe this was not what was intended for me to take away from this class but I feel enlighten by taking it for these reasons all the same.

Final Entry


            Well, this is my final journal entry and I honestly wished I could end this on a stronger note.  I woke up to day with the intent of going to school and taking my two exams, put the final touches on my final, posting one of my papers that I forgot to and posting my final.  Unfortunately, it didn’t all go as planned.  The previous night, I could not sleep at all and ended up sleeping right through my first exam but the rest of the day went as planned and I am relieved that this semester is over.

What is America?


            A while ago I was asked how I would describe America to someone who had next to no knowledge of our country.  This was a question that I found a little difficult to answer as my own personal cynicism would probably get in the way.  But I think that I have finally found the proper way to address someone like this and tell them both the pros and cons of our nation.  The idea behind the American dream is that anyone from any background can prosper in this country so long as they work hard and apply themselves.  Well, this is only partly true.
            America is a land where you can prosper compared too many other countries in the world.  So long as you have a decent job and work hard you can have a roof over your head, cloths on your pack and food in your belly.  In fact we in America eat more in a day then most people eat in a week and ultimately have more luxury.  It is a land where you can not only survive but prosper in ways that you cannot in other countries.
            However, there are some dark sides to America.  What they don’t tell you is that if you are an immigrant and a minority the deck is going to be stacked against you in many ways.  People are only going to want you for certain jobs and only to do certain things.  There is a certain status quo that many people prefer to be maintained and unfortunately immigrants tend to be near the bottom level of this.  And even if you do succeed you success will always be under suspect as people will undoubtedly accuse someone of preferential treatment or some kind of affirmative action.  Some circles of people will hate you regardless of your success or lack of out of sheer prejudices and racism.
            In the grander scheme of things, this country is a bit of a mess.  We are trillions of dollars in debt and are trying to find a way out a financial recession that has gripped the country for the past four years.  While we have come out of the worst of it the country still isn’t up to par with what it was eight years ago and the issues still have not been fully resolved.  Whereas in other countries, things such as progress and liberalism move quickly, here in America it does not.  This is a very slow moving country, is not quick to change and the government is constantly bogged down in endless squabbles.
            With all of that said, you will still find a better life here then you would in most countries.  But be warned that this is something that does not come without its price and if you want to prosper in this country you must be willing to pay it.

Monday, December 10, 2012

12/10/12 Journal Entry


            Over the past week I haven’t really been updating  this blog, as I’ve either been at school or putting myself in a Nyquil induced coma as I’ve been sick lately.  But seeing as how we’re on the final stretch of this, I might as well try and finish strong.  My goal today was simple.  Go to class and take my first exam and put the final touches on the final due for this class.  Those tasks were completed so I guess I did what I had to do today.

Thursday, November 29, 2012

11/29/12 Journal Entry


            This was a day of mixed results.  I got up this morning intent on going to both of my classes this day but didn’t quite succeed at it.  I got to my first class ten minutes late but went through the lecture without a problem.  However I somehow forgot entirely about my second class after I came home for an intended two hours.  I also intended to work on a paper that was due for this class but the same things that distracted my from my afternoon class distracted me from said paper and I didn’t get nearly as much of it done as I wanted to.  All around, it was a day of mixed results and half-finished things.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

11/26/12 Journal Entry


            Like yesterday, this was a day I got nothing done.  I had intended to go to both my morning classes and then work on my assignments.  Unfortunately, I did not sleep much the previous night and I ended up sleeping right through them.  And like yesterday I ended up playing Old Republic for the entire day and ended up wasting it again.  

11/25/12 Journal Entry


            On this day I had told myself that I would continue to work on the various assignments for this class but that did not happen.  Instead I got caught up playing the videogame Star Wars: Knights of The Old Republic and this ended up occupying all of my time and I felt that I wasted the entire day.

Saturday, November 24, 2012

11/24/12 Journal Entry

          On this day, I resolved to promote the video like crazy showing it to various people I know and trying to get them to like the Facebook page or subscribe to the channel.  The results were kind of mixed but I managed to get several people looking at the video and the number of views seems to be growing so an all-around a successful day.

11/23/12 Journal Entry


            This was a very progressive day for me.  In the morning I resolved to render the video I mentioned, finish a review of Lincoln and post it to this site and another I have, post that video on YouTube, set up a channel for it and set up a Facebook page and to help promote it and I am glad to say that I was successful in all of these things and like previous days this week, I’ve found it to be a very progressive and successful week and I could not be happier.  If you’re interested in seeing this video or the Liking the Facebook page please check the links below.  All around it was a good day.



http://www.facebook.com/GriffethGalaxyProductions

Lincoln


            Of all the filmmakers in Hollywood today, few names carry as much respect and credibility as Steven Spielberg.  In a fifty three year-long carrier, the man has made many beloved classics and masterpieces such as Jaws, The Indiana Jones films, E.T., Schindler’s List, Saving Private Ryan, has been a producer or a direct influence in over a hundred other projects, founded DreamWorks Pictures and is one of the few directors from the New Hollywood Era who has managed stay relevant, fresh and able to adapt and change with time.  While some people argue that his best days are behind him, films like Munich, The Adventures of Tintin and War Horse still prove that the man hasn’t run out of steam even if they are a far cry from what he did in the 70s and 80s.  But today we’re here to talk about his most recent film, Lincoln.
            Taking place during the final months of the Civil War, the film revolves around Abe Lincoln as he tries to get the 13th Amendment passed that will end slavery in the United States, showing all of the backdoor deals that had to be made in order to get the amendment passed as well as showing the personal grief he and his family went through during this time.  And because I am making a point to see as many films as I can this year, (and sense nothing came out that weekend other than Twilight), I decided to take a look at Spielberg’s latest film.  This is my review of Lincoln.   
            Now, as you might expect, the acting in this movie is fantastic.  The most notable and the guy who steals the show is Daniel Day-Lewis as Lincoln and talk about a perfect casting choice.  Everything about this guy just said that he is Abraham Lincoln from his body structure, to the way he walked, to his hair style, the wrinkles on his face, to his voice and his monologs and frequent storytelling.  And this probably won’t be a surprise to anyone, but I think we have our Best Actor Winner of the year.   One thing that I have noticed lately is that many historical themed films and videogames are showing revered people in a more human light and this film is no exception to this.  It shows him as a fallible human being and how much a negative effect his presidency has had on his personal life, particularly with his eldest son and wife.
            While this movie obviously belongs to Daniel Day-Lewis, all of the other actors do great work in their roles as well.  Tommy Lee Jones was perfect as the Radical Republican leader Thaddeus Stevens and steals any scene he is in and Sally Field was great as Lincoln’s wife who has been the most effected by the personal burdens of being a family member of a president.  Many of the other cast members are great in their roles such as David Strathairn, James Spader, Hal Holbrook, Jackie Earle Haley, and Bruce McGill but are ultimately limited by their screen time to do as much as they could. 
            One thing that might surprise you is that the story is very good.  The problem with most Oscar Bait-type films like The King’s Speech, The Master, or Tinker Taylor Soldier Spy is that their narratives are not very compelling and often come off as being bland and dry.  This film however is the exception to that rule.  Within the film we get a really good look at all of the politics and backdoor deals that went into getting the amendment passed and it’s probably the only film that I can think of that shows how difficult the games of politicians can be, especially when dealing with big issues such as this. 
But what really shocked me was just how funny this movie was.  Unlike most Oscar Bait, the film had a very good sense of humor integrated throughout its runtime.  Often Lincoln will start telling stories to various people almost at random and the stories themselves are either hilarious or his audiences reaction to them is.  One that really stood out to me was the story of the bird who was predicting the end of the world and the tone of that joke is more or less the tone of the humor throughout the film.  The rest of the comedy came from situations that really felt natural and unscripted.  Unlike the humor in a lot of modern films a lot of the jokes in this film actually felt like they could happen, such as the situations James Spader and his band of backdoor dealers get into while trying to get the votes for the 13th Amendment or some of the reactions to Lincoln’s stories.  It’s very well done, funny, and puts it a step above most Oscar Bait and could not have been happier about this. 
Now I usually don’t gawk over set designs or where or how films are shot, but dear god is this film well done in those regards.  Everything in this film from the set designs, to the costumes, to the fact that Lincoln often carries a blanket around with him to stave off the cold makes it seem like it legitimately takes place in 1865, (although I have to admit the fact that I’ve been to several of the places the film was shot in Richmond did take me out of the mood a bit).  Adding to this effect was the lighting as everything seemed like it was shot with only sunlight, candle light, and fireplaces light.
There are, however, a few things that annoyed me about the film.  For starters, Day-Lewis had a few to many monologs and they can and will ware on you after a while and it almost makes it seems like the writers felt that it was their job to make sure he won an Oscar as opposed to letting his performance carry it.  The second thing, and it breaks my heart to say this, was John Williams’ score.  The man has been responsible for some of the greatest and most memorable scores in film history such as the music for Indiana Jones, Jaws, Star Wars, Superman and a ton of others and holds the record for the most number of Oscar nominations in history and has won five.  This score, however, sounds like the exact same thing that he has been composing for the last fifteen years and it’s not particularly well used.  Whenever the music comes up it usually sounds manipulative, like the filmmakers are trying to tell you what to feel as opposed to letting the feeling come naturally.  Often I found myself thinking that certain scenes would have been better if they had been completely silent or actually had a score that complimented what was on screen.  And again, it breaks my heart to say this but I’m starting to think that John Williams may need to retire.
All around, despite the monologues and manipulative score, I really enjoyed this film and to be perfectly honest, I think it may be my favorite of the year.  I loved the acting, the dialog, the story, the humor and the way it was shot and put together.  If you’re a history buff like me then I recommend that you go and see it because it is worth your time and money and considering all the other stuff that has been coming out over the past few weeks this one is much more deserving of them.


All Around
9.25/10

Thursday, November 22, 2012

11/22/12 Journal Entry


            On this day I resolved to do three things.  The first was to put the final touches on the video that I have been mentioning lately.  The last two things were to stuff my face full of turkey and play Old Republic all day and I’m glad to report that I succeeded in all of these things.  Happy Thanksgiving!

11/21/12 Journal Entry


            On this day I woke up and was resolved to edit the video that I filmed yesterday.  After getting through the majority of it I decided that certain things needed to be added so I assembled my cast and reshot certain parts of it without much difficultly.  So everything worked out today.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

11/20/12 Journal Entry


            On this day I resolved to do two things.  The first was to, as usual, go to my classes and the second was to film the video that I have been referring to over the past week and I am happy to report that I was successful on doing both of these things.  Aside from one or two hick-ups the filming process went perfectly and although I may want to shoot a bit more to draw out the suspense the majority of it is done and I am extremely proud of that fact.  All around, it was a day that I am glad of.

Monday, November 19, 2012

11/19/12 Journal Entry


Over the past few days I have not been posting these because I feel that I had nothing to report and forgot the entire purpose behind these blog entries; to state my goals that I made in the morning and to if I accomplished them or not.  And in this, I failed to do the past few days.  However I seemed to have remembered this today and have started on this once again.  This morning I woke up and decided on two goals: to go to my classes and put in the final preparations for the short that I am trying to make and filming for it should begin tomorrow.  All around, it was a day that worked out.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

11/14/12 Journal Entry


            Today happened to be a very progressive day.  As usual on the weekdays I went to all of my classes without much problem, other than some brief engine trouble that resolved itself very quickly.  The real progress came when I returned home.  As I’ve mentioned in previous posts, I have a number of video projects that I’ve been working on for some time now but kept on putting it off for one reason or another.  It seems, however that the video my finally be moving forward.  I completed the first draft of the script earlier this day to my satisfaction, (although I do intend to do more to it if it is required).  I also was able to convince a friend to use his house as a shooting location and another to play one of the parts for a reasonable price.  Who will be in the opposing role is still open but it’s more progress then I’ve made on it sense I started planning it.  The last major achievement made was some light testing and actually found that the room wasn’t dark enough which surprised me.  The final thing I did worth noting was the continual work on my rough draft of my paper.  All around, it was a good day.

11/13/12 Journal Entry


            On this day I woke up and dedicated myself to doing two major things.  The first was to go to my classes which I succeeded at and to write out three things.  The first was to finish a post I was writing for another blog, in which I was successful and the post turned out great.  The second was to outline a paper for this class in which I was partly successful.  The third was to outline a screenplay for a short video I plan on doing later this month.  I was at least partly successful in all of my tasks so this was a good day.  

Monday, November 12, 2012

11/12/12 Journal Entry


            Today was a very progressive day, especially considering how sick I was yesterday.  I got up planning simply to go to my morning classes and do nothing progressive for the rest of the day but my plans changed.  I was successful in my first task and upon arriving home assigned myself to two others.  The first was writing out a draft of an article for another blog I run, dealing with my complaints against a certain game.  The second was to write out a draft for a video I plan on making this weekend.  I was successful in both tasks and hopefully both of these things will yield fruit in the near future.

11/11/12 Journal Entry


            On this day, I had no goals and outside of writing this post I accomplished nothing because I was sick.  I don’t know what was wrong with me but I had no goals for the day and slept for most of it.  I feel better now though.

Saturday, November 10, 2012

11/10/12 Journal Entry


            This was yet another day.  All I wanted to do was to type something up, do my laundry and play a videogame that has taken me far too long to beat.  And I succeeded in all three things so a day well done I guess.

11/09/12 Journal Entry


Today was a day where I only planned on going to one class which I succeeded in.  The rest of the day was dedicated to hanging out with my friends and seeing Skyfall, which I succeeded in doing both.  So I did what I set out to do even if it wasn’t much. 

Thursday, November 8, 2012

I Voted!


I Voted!

11/8/12 Journal Entry


            This day was yet another lazy one, as when I woke up the only thing that I planned on doing was again to go to class and come home which I successfully did.  The rest of the day menial tasks kept popping up, such as cleaning my desk, dusting out my CPU and getting books that I’ve read off my Kindle.  All around, it could have been a more productive day but better than most where I’m usually lazy. 

11/7/12 Journal Entry


            On this day, I woke up only with the intention to go to both of my morning classes which I was only partly successful at due to my oversleeping.  However as the day went on, new goals started to emerge and I was able to complete them.  This included writing and posting an assignment on virtues which was due on Monday but I was unable to do due to physical and mental exhaustion I was experiencing.  Another thing popped up was for me start work on a project that I’ve been meaning to get started on for far too long.  I was able to get a general outline for it done and now I have to type out the first draft for it.  The last major thing was to get through a good deal of the storyline of Assassin’s Creed III for personal reasons.  And in all of these things, minus one of my classes, I was successful.  All around, it was a good day.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Virtues to Cultivate


            There are a number of virtues that people wish to live by throughout their lives but people are often unsuccessful in doing so.  There are some that I wish to cultivate myself and I can only hope that I am able to do so throughout my life.


1.      Industry
Keep active and hardworking, never giving into laziness, sloth, or useless actions.

2.      Ambition
Always have my eyes set on something bigger and better and never accepting good enough.

3.     Tolerance
Accepting those of other cultures, traditions, intelligent and education levels that differ from my own.

4.     Resolution
To keep at something once I have begun to peruse it.

5.     Moderation
Do not spend in excess.

6.     Truthfulness
Honesty with all of those around you.

7.     Charity
Give to those who are in need.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

11/6/12 Journal Entry


            The past few days I was unable to update this blog due to my being out of town during the weekend and being physically and mentally exhausted because of it but I’m back to do this once again.  All I wanted to do today was to go to my classes and vote and that was the good I did for today.  Again, I need to put more effort into what I do daily but today was dedicated just to those things.

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

10/31/12 Journal Entry


This day saw my return to school after being closed for two days because of the super storm Sandy that swept the east coast.  I can’t say that I was happy or upset to return as my time at the school only takes up about four hours out of my day.  I woke up and resolved to do two things; go to my classes and do my reading.  The first was easy but I again slacked on the reading department distracted again by a videogame I mentioned yesterday.  I did get some of the reading done but not nearly enough and I again find myself thinking that I could do better but I could also do worse.

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

10/30/12 Journal Entry


            Seeing as how the storm ensured that my classes were canceled, I decided to spend the day playing a new video game that come out today.   One that takes place before and during the American Revolution so the timing is strange when I think about my American Lit. class and my history class.  So I guess I did all I wanted to do, but can’t honestly say that it was much.

Monday, October 29, 2012

10/29/12 Journal Entry


            Due to the weather that has been hitting the east coast, I set out to do only two things this day.  The first was to finish editing and post the video I mentioned in the last two entries and to spend an hour and a half studying.  But like yesterday, today was a mixed bag.  I managed to finish said video and posted it and the person I was working with on it loved the way it turned out.  I personally am indifferent towards it, mainly because I’ve been watching it over and over again over the past few days but from a technical standpoint this is easily the best of the three videos that we have done, primarily because of a new video editing program I obtained in-between videos. 
            In my second task, I again only studied for about 45 minutes and I don’t know why it took me so long to figure out but the reason for my lax studying is that I choose to tackle it so late at night, often right before posting this entry and going to bed.  I’m glad that I found the root cause of this because now I can deal with it. 

Sunday, October 28, 2012

10/28/12 Journal Entry


            On this day I set out to do three things.  The first was to continue editing the video I mentioned in the last entry.  The second was to spend an hour and a half studying and to do my art history homework.  I was able to do a great deal of the video and almost have it complete and finished my homework so I was successful in those regards.  Unfortunately, I was distracted by my editing so much to where I only got about forty-five minutes of studying in.  So all around, I had two hits and a miss.  A downgrade from yesterday to be sure, but certainly could have been worse. 

Saturday, October 27, 2012

10/27/12 Journal Entry


            When I finished my morning routines, there were six things that I was intent on doing before the dawn came the next day, (I have irregular sleeping habits), for the bettering of myself and those around me.  One was that I would take an hour and a half to study my various subjects for school for my grade benefits.  The second was that I would take three to four hours editing a review video that a friend of mine had me direct and edit which would have been to both of our benefits; I obtaining practice with the skills and testing of a new editing program and he in his attempts to get an ongoing web series with a large following.  The third was to wash the dishes in my kitchen which had grown out of control in number and to spend an hour writing out a new project that I have been planning for far too long and have yet to do anything on.  The fifth and sixth things were to post Best Self and this article on this blog.
            My fifth goal I accomplished without much effort and considering that you are reading this the sixth was accomplished as well.  The other goals, however, were a little more challenging to complete then I anticipated.  What was originally supposed to be four hours of video editing turned into eight; the first four and a half at once and the other three and a half spread out throughout the day and ended up dominating at almost at the expense of my other goals.  While I do feel that I spent way too much time on said video, I do not regret spending so much time on it as accomplished more on it then I expected to.  During one of my breaks from editing I made my way into the kitchen, filled up the sink, let the dishes soak, and washed the majority of them.  Not as many as I originally intended but more then I honestly expected myself to do.
            My hour and a half of studying, however, was pushed back several hours and I didn’t finish this until around 1:10 A.M. on October 28, 2012.  It was done, but much later then it should have been.  The only thing that I failed to do was to start writing the project that I mentioned earlier and I am upset that I failed in this.  All around, it was a good day and one that was not wasted.  But I am positive that I can do better. 

Best Self


The Best Self and How He Will Flourish
Trey Griffeth


Many people do not seem to know what their best self is.  They don’t seem to know what they want in life or allow people to try to steer them in the direction that said person wants them to go in.  I on the other hand have had a taste of my best self and am fully aware of the direction I want to go as this person and where I don’t want to go.  Certain people want to use this person to further their own ambitions while dragging me into a mediocrity that I wish to avoid while others want me to leave this person behind all together and join them in making slightly above minimum wage doing back breaking labor while spending most of my off time in an intoxicated stupor.  These are things that I vow that I will not do and will allow my best self to flourish away from these people’s ideas of what I should do. 
            My best self, as of right now, is the one who works on his short films.  He is the person who doesn’t get distracted by trivial things.  He is the person who keeps on writing his script despite the temptation of other indulgences.  He is the person who keeps on editing despite the lure of video games and amusing YouTube videos.  He is the person who spends a good chunk of his money on better equipment despite his financial situation for the bettering of the film.  He is a person who is able remain oblivious to the distracting activities that are going on right outside his room and is able to work though anything.  He is a person who is able to adapt to the situations based on what the “actors” think should be done and how the environment and situations change.  Above all, he is a person who is able to start and finish his short films and do them to the best of his abilities and available resources.
            My ideal self of the future is one who is able to fore fill his dreams in ways that will satisfy me; and expanded version of my current best self if you will.  He is a person who is able to complete scripts for full length feature films and is able to rewrite them and accept constructive criticism of them until they are perfect to be put on screen that will please audiences and critics alike.  He is also someone who is able to effectively produce and direct.  He is a person who is able to execute his job flawlessly and is able to circumnavigate the other producers in order to achieve the vision that he is looking for but is still able to please their demands.  He is a person who won’t sell out but is able to make the film in a way that the executives will have faith in his abilities to make them money.  He is also a person who is able to command the respect and obedience of those who work under him but at the same time is someone who knows when he should listen to someone and when they should be ignored as opposed to someone who listens only to himself and cares nothing for the opinions of others. 
            But how and where does this person flourish?  The honest answer to this question is that I don’t know.  For my best self in the present different places and attitudes seem to be more effective than others.  When writing an initial draft of a script and editing a rough cut of a short film together it is best to be in isolation; to be completely disconnected from other people until the process is done.  Unfortunately this has a very negative effect on the other parts of what I consider to be my best self and this isolationist style is unacceptable for the person I wish to become.  As of right now and where I am this person will probably never flourish due to the environment I live in; one that is full of people with no ambition and wish for me to conform to the same level of mediocrity that they wish to maintain, while criticizing everything that I do to prove that I am not like them.  While I would never call the place I live at a cesspool, it is a place that does not allow for my best self to flourish and only allows him to appear once a blue moon.
            I honestly do not know where this person will flourish but I do know it is away from where I’m at right now.  In order for this person to flourish, I will need to be around likeminded people; ones who share my ambitions and needs to break away from the levels of what I consider mediocrity.  In order to become this person I must also find some way to balance the isolationist with the social butterfly to achieve the best self of my future.  He must be someone who is able to isolate himself from the world on a temporary basis in order to achive certain parts of his projects but is able to slip out of this person into the person who is able to listen to others and is able to command their respect.
            As to how I am going to become this person, as I’ve said the first step is to break free of the environment that I am currently in.  The first step in this road seems to be one final year at the school that I am currently at and will hopefully be followed by a few at a film school with people who share my ambitions.  From there on, I honestly do not know where my road leads or where this best self will flourish.  All that I know is that my best self is person who writes, films and edits short films and the one of the future will do the same on a much larger scale.  I also am aware that this best self is unable to flourish where I am currently at and that a I will need a change in order for this person to come out and fully become what I hope for him to be.

Friday, October 5, 2012

First Post

First post for my American lit class.  Very surprised that he's making us do this.